MMG Gripes

Letting it out ...

Went for coffee with a colleague ... and just started talking about what ticked us off. Summed it all up in one phrase ... "Know it alls who are actually ignorant but trying to be important" That included management, daft people and our very own 'dear' colleagues too. For people like us who are usually oblivious to annoyances, those that we talked about pretty much would have made your skin crawl.

Nosing around a bit and discovered that some friends who had happy relationships before and kinda rubbed it in my face when I had no one are now on their own. I'm not going to rub it in coz God knows I still remember how bad it felt before ... the finality of it all. I wouldn't wish that fate on my worst enemy. Things do get better and once you find the right one, the past just don't matter anymore. In fact, you'll be glad that the past relationship ended coz you wouldn't have been as happy as you are now with yourself and with your right love. Just remember not to rub it in another lonely person's face ... karma can bite you right back in the ass when you least expect it ... nuff said

I've finally made peace with my past. It took me awhile but I'm finally able to just let the past go. I can finally see all the blessings around me now and boy, it really feels good to embrace fate and life.

--- Saturday 14th April 2007 --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Gosh, I do sound like a grumpy grandma don't I? Well, on a happier note, looking around Friendster and saw that many of my friends have gotten married and sporting their babies' pictures in their pages. Gosh, they're so cute. Almost makes me wanna get on the marriage wagon too. Almost. I don't think I'll make a good wife yet; let alone a good mum. The idea of accidentally screwing up someone's life especially a little helpless baby scares me to death. I'm looking at my married friends and their babies and gosh do I feel ancient ... then I look at my single friends having the time of their lives and I snap back into reality. My life is good. I have what I need for the moment. Babies? Hmm, maybe a few more years. I don't feel the great urge to be responsible for another human being other than myself yet. To be frank, I really don't have any idea where my life is heading now. I'm on a smooth ride at the moment. I haven't mapped out my destination yet. Sure, I have a great guy, a good job, a car, a coming condo ... yet they're what I need to keep this "car" going. It's where I'm going that I need to work out. Generally, I do know where I'm heading; starting a family, getting promoted etc, but no specifics yet. Feels like I'm still drifting along in my life. Can anyone tell me how to get me started in mapping up my life?

posted by Marg @ 10:40 PM